I dunno why, recently my life is like so bloody screwed up!

when did all this started? its not supposed to be like this.. ='(
everyone is so drift. I dun like this at all!

I miss those days,

okay, I know I shouldn't be thinking so much..

but I'jus can't help it.. ='(

& I'm really really very sad.

I think I've hurt a good friend of mine, someone so close to me..
You're always there for me and always so understand me,
yet I actually vent my anger on you ..
I realise that I dun really understand you that much.
I dunno any single things that happens ard you!
I'm not a good friend and I'm really sorry, so so so sorry! ='(
sometimes, I really feel like throwing everything aside and cry!
please, things gotta get better, if not I really dunno what to do?
everyday putting on a fake smile like everything is so damn okay..
when actually everything is so not okays!
I wanna find back my smile, I hate to put on a fake smile, you know?
I really have got so much so much so much to say...
maybe I've change, maybe time drew a gap between us,
maybe I just so selfish, maybe you deserve a better friend..
sorry if I've ever said something that hurts you,
sorry for not being such a good friend,
sorry for venting my anger on you,
sorry for all the things I've done & should done & have not done..

teach me, teach me how to be a happier person?

teach me how to pretend nothing has happened..

teach me how can I move on?

Withlotsoflove,