This is the last time, so very last time it will be !
I will never ever bother to get angry or disppointed anymore.
You did a great job, you did all that things I wanted to do yet lack of courage to do it.
I won't waste my time anymore, I have other things that is important than this.
This time, its really the last time.
cuz' I did say before...
What if one day, you realise that I've change ?
What if one day, you realise that I've given up ?
What if one day, you realise that I can no longer be bothered anymore?
What if one day, you realise that you are the one losing ?
What if one day, you realise that I all along know that you're lying ?
No more what if.
You are just another peanut in my life.
Without you, life is better.


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Right now, I don't wish to care about the shitty problem that someone gave me.
I don't want anything, you can continue leading your life, I won't care.
cuz' right now, nothing is more important than what is happening to me now !

I am feeling very very complicated and messy right now.
If things goes wrong, I don't think this time I have the strength to carry on.
Because the strength of my life is missing now :'(
Till the day I found it back, I don't think I can stop thinking..
Do you know how painful it is to smile and act like nothing happen infront of everyone,
when the fact is your heart is actually breaking into pieces and rapidly bleeding ?
I am really really breaking down soon ! I hope the time can go back ! :'(
I don't want to be strong anymore..........


P/s: I am not the strong girl that I used to be anymore, where the strength of my life ? :'(

Withlotsoflove,