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WithL♥ve, Arena.L





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My name is Arena.L;



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Arena is my real name. 27 Aug is my birthday.
Don't judge me, because you don't know any of my story.
I'm incredibly awkward, sensitive, negative and faithless.
I think alot and worry alot about little things.
Most importantly, I care too much about everything.
I am boring and I don't have a life.
Get it?


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Sunday, April 18, 2010
2:09 AM
A moment of solitude.


I hope someone else could be me for a day, and you'll know how it feels to be in my shoe.
I just wanna close my eyes from the things that bothers me..

Will things be okay? Maybe, I don't know too. Sometimes, I really hope ppl stop asking me to cheer up or don't emo. It's not like I can choose whether I want to be upset or happy right? If can choose I want to be happy forever, free from all troubles and problems. And I'm not emo, I'm just being me, the me, when I'm alone, stay away from human beings. Cuz it takes up a lot of energy to fake that powerful smile and joke ard with people. I always thought that I'm invicible, I'm strong. But I didn't know that when things happen, it strike me so hard that I didn't know what to do. I feel so lost, I wish I have the power to turn time back to 1 year ago. I have so much to say, but I don't know how to blog it out. I typed, I erased, I edit... Just so hard to pour out what my current feeling now is.

I really hate myself for being such a letdown, I can't do things right, I always screw things up. Yea, try to hard yet the outcome of everything turn worst? Am I really that lousy or others are expecting too much from me. I'm not super human, I can't be perfect, I can't do whatever ppl expect me to.. I just hate the feeling of letting people down, and it feels like you can't do things right. I hate my mind. I spend too much time thinking too much. I hate how little things can affect me and make me feel so down. I feels so sucky. I have so much things that people don't know. Ppl just don't know how much things is behind this smile of mine. I party like I'm so happy, but truth is, I'm not happy. I keep too much things to myself, till I don't know who am I anymore..

& Please don't expect too much from me....

Luvs.

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