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WithL♥ve, Arena.L





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My name is Arena.L;



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Arena is my real name. 27 Aug is my birthday.
Don't judge me, because you don't know any of my story.
I'm incredibly awkward, sensitive, negative and faithless.
I think alot and worry alot about little things.
Most importantly, I care too much about everything.
I am boring and I don't have a life.
Get it?


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Wednesday, September 29, 2010
12:32 AM
This explain why I'm always pretending..


 
This is so close to my heart, so me....


Hahahaha, I just had a fucking breakdown just now..
It sucks so much that for the pass few weeks, I haven't got any news from my mum.
Every single time I open my mailbox, my heart sink, like broken into pieces and hard to breathe.
It makes me wonder, did somthng bad happen or my mum is disappointed with me?
All sorts of negative things float in my mind..... But today, I open my mailbox and it's finally here.
I dun knw, but the moment I saw the letter, I feel like crying... At least I knw mummy is safe and sound. 
And that's rly all I asked for, news for her and knw that she is okay. Thank god... 
 
Everytime I have a major breakdown, ppl ard me will be telling me to cheer up, dun think so much.
I rly thanks every single one of u that said those to me before. But you all knw that I won't be able to do it.
At least not fully cheer up or totally not think abt it. You all knw I just can't do it.
But I'm thankful for everyone that stand by me and hold on to me even when they knw nuts abt anything.
For those who knw, I thank you all even more. I think part of the reason I'm still here is bcuz of you ppl.
You all give me strength to move on and be strong. If not I rly think I'll go suicide.
I knw for ppl who knw me, I seems like a totally funny and crazy person.. 
With totally no link to someone who look like will think of suicide. Hahaha.
This is how ironic I'm, what inside and outside speaks totally different thing.
But well, not to worry, I'll nvr try to die becuz I promise my mum that I'll be her strong girl always.... 


Now I've found myself a reason thinking that crying is okay... 
Because when I cry all my tears out, only then I'm be able to smile again..
So, look, I'm rly fine now. I still can say lame jokes and make ppl smile like how I always used to. Hehehe.
I love every single one of my friends and also definitely my mother!
I'll keep every single of my promise that I made to my mum. 

Xoxo.

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