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WithL♥ve, Arena.L





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My name is Arena.L;



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Arena is my real name. 27 Aug is my birthday.
Don't judge me, because you don't know any of my story.
I'm incredibly awkward, sensitive, negative and faithless.
I think alot and worry alot about little things.
Most importantly, I care too much about everything.
I am boring and I don't have a life.
Get it?


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Friday, October 22, 2010
11:35 PM
No way.


I guess ppl just don't see how hard it is for me, to pretend that nothing ever happen, when there's a million diseased thoughts in my head, trying to force themselves out of my mouth that is refusing to open up and speak up. I. JUST. CAN'T. DO. IT. To bring myself to share out my exact and true feelings. Guess, it has become a habit. Maybe pretending has really become my strength to move on. I hate how I always screw things up. I hate that I can't control so many things in my life. I hate that my life sucks so much than other ppl's life. I hate that I always can't handle the stress. I hate that I'm such a coward. I hate that I can't bring myself to share my pains and trouble to ppl. What I hate the most is that, I hate myself for not being able to help, not being able to be a better daughter, sister and friend. I think I sucks. Alot. I really feel like crying now............ And I hate this me. Feeling so weak and useless..... I really wish that my life have appear offline button, so I can really hit on it and just fade away for a moment in life. I feel so sick of this cycle that is happening to me once every while..... I don't understand why am I feeling so negative always? Just. leave. me. alone..





A.

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