Someday, it will all end. The darkness in your mind, the coldness in your heart, the sadness in your eyes... It will be be clear, one day. Nothing is forever.

Life, is a cycle. And it goes on and on. I hate having the feeling of not know what to do and what I want in life. So many things happen everyday, and each obstacle that I've pass made me feel so much. Step by step, till today, I've come this far, but the emptiness feeling never seems to go away. I feel so lost. Don't know if I'm lost in life, or I'm just bored of my life. Maybe it's both. Again, I feel so much this few days. How I wish that I can have my mom guiding me through my adulthood life. I feel so lost, and not knowing what is right and what is wrong. I'm so afraid to take chances and new steps. Can someone please lend me some courage?

Really miss my mom. Miss coming home, seeing her face, miss her nagging, miss her cooking, miss her scolding, miss her everything. Sometimes, I just wish to let down all this strong face and be a mommy little girl. I'm almost forgetting how family warmth feel like anymore. Guess I'm too used to being alone and strong already. I really wish to escape from here, this misery place of torment. I want a new life, I want to feel alive....................... Till then, I'm still finding hope......


xoxo.

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