IF..
If I died tonight, how many people would care? How many people would know? How many people would moan and wish they had me back? How many people would regret being assholes? How many people would wish they loved me more? How many people would wish they loved me less?
Week 2 of my IAP, seems like I super long nvr rly update my blog. Ya, if you can get what I mean.
FYP ended like 2 weeks ago, GSS started, my IAP started too. I began to see and learn so much abt life.
FYP ended like 2 weeks ago, GSS started, my IAP started too. I began to see and learn so much abt life.
It's simple, everyone lie and everyone changed. People we know become ppl we knew.
It's ironic that people always like to say things and do things differently. People bitch abt one another.
Yet act like nth happen. Yes, everybody is like that. Just that nobody is brave enough to admit it. I'm one of them.
Then I've learn that as I grow older, innocent become more and more far away from me.
Friends getting lesser and lesser each year. Problems getting more and more everyday.
Friends getting lesser and lesser each year. Problems getting more and more everyday.
People getting more and more fake. Time shows us how much things have changed.
I'm tired. Very tired. My mind and my heart is worn out..
I'm still the same, trying very hard to struggle my life between friends, family, myself and work.
Trying to find a balance point in the middle of all this. Trying to balance up my emotions too.
Trying not to be too emotional and dramatic. But it's hard for me not to feel depress even for a day.. HAHA.
Well, my life is boring, Monday to Friday - IAP from 830 to 6. Then weekends working at cotton on.
This is my life. I barely have time to meet my friends and I don't have time to shop. No time to relax too.
This is my life. I barely have time to meet my friends and I don't have time to shop. No time to relax too.
And the only time I have is only night, but then again, I don't want to club my entire youth away.
Despite trying so hard, something out there nvr fails me pull me down? Maybe this is life.
There's just too much to learn, never ending. No matter what, there's no end. Everything is a cycle.
There's just too much to learn, never ending. No matter what, there's no end. Everything is a cycle.
I trying so much and so hard, but still my father would nvr understand. I feel so upset.
You know the feeling when you try so hard and one word from ur parents and it totally knock you down?
You know the feeling when you try so hard and one word from ur parents and it totally knock you down?
I'm that type of person who sees family more than anything else, I'm not angry neither do I hate my family.
Yes, I might complain and whine abt my family, but w/o them, there won't be me.
So, a little bit of reprimand from them makes me feel very very vulnerable and makes me wna cry..
And I rly hate that how can they make me feel like I'm so useless? Like Everything I do, is wrong.
I'm not someone that cry easily, but words come out from parents mouth have the power to make me cry.
Maybe I'm still useless after all... But one day, I'll prove it to my parents that I'm not useless!
Everything happens for a reason.. So I believe it's worth it.. Everything is worth it.
Cuz, one day, when I look back, I will realised that all this thing have strengthen me and make me stronger!
Cuz, one day, when I look back, I will realised that all this thing have strengthen me and make me stronger!
Xoxo, Arena.L
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