Too much emotions is filling me up right up. For the past 2 hours, my emotional state is like a crazy roller coaster ride. Been through high and low, up and down. I really think humans thought is really amazing, it change so fast that I'm beginning to be afraid of myself too. //this was typed like 5 mins ago, before I'm being told I'm not spending enough time with my family.

Okay, I'm officially a fucked up person, world most lousiest person in the world. I don't deserve anything good, or anyone affection, or just plainly happiness. I am a loser, a moron, a pathetic, a useless, a worthless piece of shit. Thanks. I didn't know after all I've done for my family, I'm still being told, not caring enough for them. Yeah? how about telling me what should I do? I've stopped crying, but now, I'm completely break down. Fuck this shit, you know how much I hate to cry?